“And those men said unto him, We are defiled by the dead body of a man: wherefore (why) are we kept back, that we may not offer an offering of the LORD in his appointed season among the children of Israel? And Moses said unto them, Stand still, and I will hear what the LORD will command concerning you.”Numbers 9:7-8
Work has been extremely busy, and it is not unusual to find myself working late into the night. I love working from home, but the downside to that is work is always there and seems to be whispering to me even when I try to ignore it. I have been discouraged lately due to the volume of work, and the people with whom I speak are not always the kindest people in the world. I have to fight against joining others in complaining about my job, and I need to remind myself of how I prayed for this job that God has graciously provided. Other people in my company are searching for other opportunities and this has caused me to ponder if I should do the same.
I was selected to attend a manager candidate school two years ago, but I have not been able to secure a manager job at this point. A good friend of mine left our company and went to another rival company and quickly rose up the ranks and became a manager. I started to compare his situation to mine, which quickly led to discontentment and caused me to have a wandering eye. I thought I would browse all the employment sites, and I thought to spruce up my resume. I became impatient with my current situation, and I figured there had to be a better way. I love my company that I work for, but I thought to pursue greener pastures.
As my options swirled in my head, our pastor got up to preach a message on what it looks like to be a godly man of character. He preached out of Titus 2 and he landed on verse 2 which states, “That the aged men be sober, grave (dignified), temperate, sound in faith, in charity (love), in patience.” He mentioned other verses, but the one word that stuck with me was “patience.” I am not one to jump ship, but yet I was looking at other options without consulting with God. I was looking for greener pastures, but not asking God if I should leave or stay. I was being controlled by emotions and feelings, and I was being as impatient as a kid on a road trip. I was convicted by that message, and I knew that I needed to wait things out and see where God would lead.
I started my workweek the next day with a refreshed mindset, and while my circumstances did not change, my outlook sure did. I had a one-on-one with my manager and we were going over some things when she advised that she almost forgot that she needed to share something with me. She told me that I was receiving a 9.5% raise and that was in addition to my possible merit increase that would be reviewed earlier in following year. I was elated to hear this news, and I thanked God for His provision and encouragement. I am glad He spoke to my heart about being patient, and I have come to know His timing is always perfect. I thought about how I often take things into my own hands, and how I make decisions based on my feelings and emotions.
Moses was wise to wait on the Lord when he did not have the answer to this situation, and we would be wise to do the same in all circumstances of our lives. We seem to ask everyone and anyone about what we should do instead of asking the One who knows the answer to all things. We need to do more standing still and listening to what the Lord will have us to do instead of being controlled by our own wisdom and guidance.
Where are you today friend? Are you standing still and waiting on the Lord, or are you being controlled by your feelings and emotions? Do you take all things to Him, or do you ask enough people in order to get the answer you want to hear? In times of uncertainty, are you hasty in making a decision or do you take the time to give it to God in prayer? May we stand still in a world that is in a hurry, and may we wait on Him and move forward on our knees.