Murder In The First Degree

“And it came to pass in those days, when Moses was grown, that he went out unto his brethren, and looked on their burdens: and he spied an Egyptian smiting (beating) an Hebrew, one of his brethren. And he looked this way and that way, and when he saw that there was no man, he slew (killed) the Egyptian, and hid him in the sand. And when he went out the second day, behold, two men of the Hebrews strove together (were fighting): and he said to him that did the wrong, Wherefore (Why) smitest (are you hitting) thou thy fellow? And he said, Who made thee a prince and a judge over us? intendest thou to kill me, as thou killedst the Egyptian? And Moses feared, and said, Surely this thing is known.”

Exodus 2:11-14

I remember times in my life when my anger has come at a great cost to me, and I have lost friends, money, and even property due to my unbridled rage. I have blown up at my kids, wife, parents and others I hold dear to me. I have catalogued in my mind the many instances when I allowed my anger to get the best of me, and I missed out on something good God had for me. If I could go back and change how I reacted, I am sure things in my life would be different, but I am grateful for what God has patiently taught me through those times. 

I remember our first year of marriage being a difficult one for me as I struggled with not always getting my own way. I had to learn how to share my covers, money, and even my french fries. This sharing part was all new to me as my sister and I were six years apart and each had our own individual things, so we really did not share too much. Rebekah grew up with five siblings, so sharing was the only way they survived. I remember many times Rebekah would want peace, and I was ready for war, even over simple things like her taking my fries or her cooking rendition of lemon chicken. It did not take much to set me off, and I was always ready to fight at the drop of a hat. I loved her, but I loved my way even more. 

I often made raging bonfires out of things that could have easily been put out. I once grew so angry that I told Rebekah she needed to leave and started to put her items out on the driveway. I got about two or three loads out there when I noticed my neighbor sitting in the dark watching me.  He stared at me and asked, “Are you having a yard sale?” It was already late into the night and it was dark outside, so I am sure he asked that question in jest. I felt foolish and realized my unchecked anger had led to my foolish actions. I wish I could say I leaned my lesson from that ordeal, but I have often placed myself in that boat over the course of our 21 years together. If you are not careful, anger can lead you down a destructive path. 

Many years after Moses committed this murder in anger, Numbers 12:3 describes Moses, “Now the man Moses was very meek, above all the men which were upon the face of the earth.” It took much time for Moses to grow spiritually and become meek and humble. In this instance in his younger years, he let his anger get the better of him, and he committed an act that was wicked and ungodly. He knew it was wrong as he looked around before committing this premeditated act, but he never looked above, and he forgot that God is always watching. He had enough time to think about what he was going to do, but he gave into the flesh and satisfied his anger by taking the life of another. We can judge Moses for this heinous act, but the Bible says we are guilty of the same when we hate our brother. 

How are you doing in the anger department, friend? Do you hate your brother? Have you allowed your anger to fester and even entertained thoughts of hurting or murdering another? Proverbs 17:9 states, “He that covereth a transgression seeketh love; but he that repeateth a matter separateth very (close) friends.” Are you quick to forgive a transgression, or do you demand someone pay for what they have done to you? May we be filled with the Spirit so that we don’t obey the flesh, and may we not ruin our lives with the consequences of unbridled anger. Proverbs 25:28 states, “He that hath no rule over his own spirit (self-control) is like a city that is broken down, and without walls.” May we rule over our spirit as we follow God, and may we allow vengeance to belong only to Him. 

Stay in the Fight!

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