“For the LORD thy God hath blessed thee in all the works of thy hand: he knoweth thy walking through this great wilderness: these forty years the LORD thy God hath been with thee; thou hast lacked nothing.”Deuteronomy 2:7
I have lived a full life in my time on this earth as I have gotten to do things I have only dreamed of. I have been blessed on many levels and to various degrees. God has given me so much, whether it be the fulfilling of my dreams or opening my eyes to His truth and knowledge of Him. He has allowed me to serve Him in various ministries, and I have been able to meet a lot of people and make connections with others. He has given me the gift of a wife whom I have had my eye on since I was 13 years old. He has blessed me with a family who has loved me and been there for me through the hills and valleys of life. I was raised in a Christian home, and I never missed a meal as many can attest. I have always had a roof over my head, and I have always had clothes to cover my back. I have free access to worship, and I can openly read God’s word as I sit in my favorite comfy chair in the morning. One would think with all these blessing and favors of God that there would be nothing to despair about, but I have had my struggles with thinking God has left me.
I am sure many have struggled with the notion that God has left them or abandoned them in some way. We all go through situations in life in which we feel all alone and we cannot go on with life. I have experienced hurts, disappointments, and struggles in my life, much like those of you who are reading this. I have heard of others personally who have gone through things that I would not wish on anybody. I am learning God is sovereign and there is always a plan and purpose for things that happen in life, and He is always teaching us if we will allow ourselves to be taught. God makes no mistakes with what He allows in our lives, and all things are for His honor and glory. We may ask for needed funds and receive a big bill in the mail. The circumstances of life do not always make sense to use, but God is not confused or dumfounded by the trials of life.
I have experienced the awkwardness of the first day being at a new school and finding no one to sit with, and no welcoming faces or beckoning arms inviting you to sit with them. I have been at a new job in the same situation, feeling lost and alone looking for a place to fit in. I also experienced moving to a different state altogether with only the cold to greet you as you exit the car door. I know what it feels like to want friends but not sure how to connect with people. I remember at times feeling like God had forgotten me and put me in a desolate place. In those moments, it is hard to see what God is doing in your life. I may not understand everything, but I can see how He used this time in my life.
I was rebellious when we moved to Chicago, and God taught me personally how real He was. He answered my prayers like I had never known, and He led me to a pastor who was patient with me and did his best to disciple me. God kept me from the troubles that some experienced in the place I left, and as I grew out of adolescence, my faith become my own and not just my parents’ faith. I look back on my life and see how God has been with me my whole life, teaching me things along the way. He has been there in the dark moments, joyful moments, and all the other moments in between. He has proven Himself faithful time and time again, and I have learned that my feelings are not a reliable source of truth. I have lacked nothing in my life, and I have been blessed beyond measure. My God is always good and He has never left me or forsaken me.
Do you feel like God has left you? Do you sometimes feel alone? Do you struggle to find a friend at times? Do you realize He is a friend who sticks closer than a brother? Are you allowing your feelings to dictate the truth about God? May we never forget the truth of God even though our circumstances may seem dire and insurmountable. May the times in the wilderness not draw us away or cause us to question our God, but may they draw us near to Him who walks with us through every aspect of life. Will you trust Him today?