Fully Surrendered

“Behold, we are servants this day, and for the land that thou gavest unto our fathers to eat the fruit thereof and the good thereof, behold, we are servants in it: And it yieldeth much increase unto the kings whom thou hast set over us because of our sins: also they have dominion over our bodies, and over our cattle, at their pleasure, and we are in great distress. And because of all this we make a sure covenant, and write it; and our princes, Levites, and priests, seal unto it.”

Nehemiah 9:36-37

I had my eye on Rebekah the first day I saw her walk into my homeroom class. She was new to the school, and she stood out like a sun ray peaking out of a cloudy sky. I did not immediately fall for her as she represented the good side of things and I was from the dark side. We were much like oil and water and although I thought she was beautiful, I was not sure this would all work out. I knew she did not give me much thought as I was not kind to her, and I was not eager to join the right side of the law. She was quick to point out those who broke the rules, and I was quick to always break the rules. I was attracted to her, but not enough to make the switch.

One time, I had a dream over the weekend, and I was head over heels in “love” with her. I had to ask her out even though she guessed me last when her sister told her a boy in the eighth grade had a crush on her. We “went out” for two months before I messed that up, but she gave me another chance the following year and that lasted a whole seven months. Although we were sweet on each other for a total of only nine months, she made quite the impression on me. We barely talked in high school, and we were supposed to go on a date that never happened. I moved away and wrote her, but my letters went unreturned. I gave up hope of any type of relationship although I could never forget that blue-eyed, blonde-haired beauty. She came back into my life when I least expected, but God had a plan for our lives.

We began seeing each other again when we were older and more mature, and I vowed I would not let her get away this time. I was not going to lose her again, and I was fully committed to her. You could not offer me any amount of money in the world to give her up, and if she asked me to walk a thousand miles, I would get to stepping. I was thinking only of marrying her when we stared to date again, and it was marriage or bust in my mind when she gave me a third shot. It was not hard for me to ask her to marry me as I longed for this day since 1990. I could not imagine my life without her, and I had no trouble saying my marriage vows. I was committed to this woman, and I was all hers. I did not desire another and even in my immaturity, I knew I was entering into a lifelong covenant. I was hers till “death do us part”, and she was mine in the same regard. I will always contend I got the better part in that arrangement, but we committed before God that we belong to each other.

I know it is a silly love story, but it was the start of what has turned into 23 years of marriage so far. The children of Israel had been returned from captivity and they recognized the goodness of God in spite of their disobedience. They surrendered their life to the will of God and proclaimed they were servants of almighty God and were committed to whatever He had for them. They recognized that God had brought them into a good land and that He was a good God. They were willing to be servants of God and they were willing to serve Him for the rest of their lives. They made a covenant with Him and had it sealed by the hand of the Levites. They did not take their covenant lightly, and they were quite serious with what they had committed to.

Are you willing to surrender yourself to God? Are you willing to lift up your hands and bow the knee in surrender or are you still holding out in the place of captivity to your sin? God is always just a prayer away for making things right with Him, and you can be right with Him today, this moment. May we surrender ourselves to Him and may we walk with Him until He calls us home. What a blessed day it will be when we are united with Him for all eternity!

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