Doubting God

And they took of the fruit of the land in their hands, and brought it down unto us, and brought us word again, and said, It is a good land which the Lord our God doth (does) give us. Notwithstanding (nevertheless) ye would not go up, but rebelled against the commandment of the Lord your God: And ye murmured (complained) to in your tents, and said, Because the Lord hated us, he hath brought us forth out of the land of Egypt, to deliver us into the hand of the Amorites, to destroy us.”

Deuteronomy 1:25-27

There have been many times in my life when I doubted God, even though I grew up in a Christian home spent numerous years in church. I have read and memorized countless Bible verses, and I have seen and been to amazing places. I have experienced the highs of life, and I have been blessed beyond measure. I have seen firsthand God work in my life through the conviction of the Holy Spirit and through answered prayer. You would think someone with these experiences would not have doubts about God, but here I stand guilty of questioning God and being discontent amongst the many blessing He has given me. Why would someone like me have these types of doubts? This is not something I can easily answer.

I heard Bible stories in junior church and Sunday school, and I even had cassette tapes I would listen to telling me of the heroes of the faith. My favorite tape was about Samson, especially when he yelled, “Let me die with the Philistines!” I would act out that part every time I saw some pillars, but I would not push too hard just in case I said it too loud and God thought I was being serious. I was amazed by the physical power God gave Samson, and I wanted that same power as well. More than that, I knew of the power of my God and how He was the source of everything, but yet there were moments in life when I forgot about this power. I acted as if I was not privy to any of this, and it led me to doubt the greatness of my God.

I doubted Him before my injured knee became double the size, and I soon realized He was my only source of hope and strength. I doubted Him when I got “educated” as I searched for empirical evidence of Him in textbooks and scientific experiments. I forgot about the answered prayers and the power God gave Samson. If you do not stay close to God, you will wander away and the father of lies will whisper lies in your ears that will cause you to doubt your God. The devil will say things that bring about fear, and that fear holds you captive and won’t allow you to do what God has commanded you to do. He is a master with words and if you are not careful, he will get your mind going and get you to doubt the God who loves you and died for you. Keeping a journal is a helpful tool to remember all that He has done in your life when Satan tempts you to doubt Him.

The children of Israel had seen all that God had done in their lives and the miracles He performed. They saw firsthand how big and mighty their God was, but yet they rebelled against the commandment of the Lord. They not only rebelled against the Lord, but they murmured against Him and spoke ill of His intentions. As much as I would like to condemn the children of Israel, I am guilty of doing this myself. I have spoken under my breath that God does not care about me or that His will for my life was to make me miserable. I did not realize the foolishness of my words and thoughts. Who was I to question God, the Creator of heaven and earth? How dare I forget all that He has done! I know I am not alone in doubting God as you may have done the same yourself.

Where are you today? Have you doubted God and His plan for your life? Have you been guilty of saying “if only ______”? Do you feel like He has withheld His goodness from you? Have you forgotten all that He has done for you? Have you forgotten the promises in His Word? May we remember the goodness of our God, and may praise fill our lips and remove all doubt from our minds. God is good all the time!

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