“O give thanks unto the Lord; for he is good: for his mercy endureth for ever.”Psalm 136:1
My work recently advised us that we would be going back into the office three days a week, which I know will lead to a permanent return to the office. Our work campus is first class and my commute is not too bad, so I was not disappointed to have to return. It has been over two years since I have returned to work there, so I was excited and nervous all at the same time. In anticipation of our return to work, my work decided that I would need a laptop to plug in at work and also at home. My laptop was delayed in getting to me, and it seemed to be one problem right the other. The last destination I saw where my laptop was last tracked was somewhere in Virginia. I was told to just come in and they would find me another laptop to get me started on my new hybrid work environment. I came into the office excited for my new equipment, but little did I know I would be in for quite a surprise.
As promised, they found me a laptop and they transferred everything over from my micro computer to my new laptop. I went to lunch and thought nothing of it and just figured everything would be on the up and up. I came home with my new laptop looking for a seamless transition, but it was the start of my computer nightmare. Nothing worked when I got home, and I couldn’t even attach my monitor to its stand. I was quite frustrated and decided to take it all back into the office. I took it in and they realized they had given me the wrong monitor, so they exchanged it out and told me everything would be okay. Well, things worked for a little while and then my laptop betrayed me, and I was back to square one. I got quite familiar with the IT help desk staff and things finally seemed to be somewhat on track and ready for the following Monday at work.
I got to the office excited to be back, and I was taken to my new desk and work area. I unloaded my boxes and got comfortable and attempted to raise my sit-stand desk when it did not move. I crawled underneath and everything was plugged in, so I unplugged everything and plugged it back in to no avail. I gave up on that and then plugged in my computer only to find some of my essential programs were not loading as expected. I contacted my new friends in IT and they advised me how to reload it and it should no longer be a problem. Well, that program worked only for another hour before it quit working altogether. I had a lot to do on a Monday, and I could ill afford to spend hours with IT as I was doing this day. I grew frustrated and angry, but they finally got me going and I was relieved to be back in business. It was now around 2:30pm, and I was finally ready to get down to business.
I went to use my work phone when I discovered my headset was not fully working. I could hear people, but they could not hear me. I imagine this is probably ideal for a perfect marriage, but it was not so ideal for work. After an hour and a half of messing with it, I was told I needed a new headset. I gave up on that and just decided to work without it. My boss came over and asked how I was doing and if I had tried the simplest things to get my headset working. I looked at him with a look of disdain, and he could feel that I was not pleased with his “Captain Obvious” suggestions. He backed out of my space and left me alone and I finished my frustrating day. On my way home, I went to get gas and decided I would get an iced tea at the local Circle K when I pulled the dispenser knob and nothing came out. I quoted my dear friend Charlie Brown and said, “Good grief!” It was a perfect ending to a horrible day.
Later that night, God convicted me as I prepared to preach a chapel message. He laid on my heart my discontentment and reminded me how He is good all the time. I said that I believe God is good, but I sure did not act like it. I complained to anyone who would listen to me, and I was not a good testimony to my new co-workers who I was meeting in person for the very first work day back in the office. I was not kind to my boss, and I failed the test God had given me. I never once knelt to pray and ask God to help me, and I never thanked Him for allowing this in my life. I was going to preach to others the goodness of God, but here I was, not living it out in out in real life. Of course I believe that God is good, but I could not convince a jury of my peers based on the way I acted that day. I apologized to my boss who blew me off and said he understood, but I apologized again because God convicted me that I was wrong in how I responded. I lacked patience and I lacked gratefulness for the job He has provided for me. God was good to me, even though I was frustrated in the circumstances of my life. I did not see Him as good, but He is good even when I don’t believe He is.
Where are you today friend? Do you give thanks to the Lord for His goodness? Do you complain about your circumstances, or do you thank God for what He has allowed in your life? God is sovereign and allows things in our lives to test us, so that we may grow to be more like Him. In the darkest of days He is good, and in the brightest of days He is good as well. God never changes so His goodness to us never changes. He rains on the just and the unjust. He died for those who spit on Him and for those who would blaspheme His name. Is God good? He is good all the time!